date: Sunday, May 29, 2005 @ 8:35 pm
title: Encounter..
I
cried buckets today in
church.
I was like
'forgive my parents for doing..' 'forgive them of abusing..' 'i call down blessing on..' 'honour them God..' 'protect them God..' 'Waaaaaaaaaaa.. '
A
sheet of tissue became a
wet ball.. full of my fluids.
gross sia..
You know..
the typical
new-age sensitive guy like ZHan is like a typical tap. Either no tears or full of tears.. open the floodgates opened, it's
bawling time.
Sniffing and wailing like nobody's business.. even when the service is over and everyone was healed up ready to leave church.. my eyes are
red with
tears within my horizon. One hand squeezing the
mashed tissue and the other wiping dried tears on my cheeks.
My
ruddy face made me seen to be though a
drunkard..
Got drunk with my
salty tears..Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..
I seldom
cry one..
Den today..
Oooops! can't stop the
incoming flow.
My pastor was staring @ me after I recovered from all the crying:
' Eh... ZHan! you ok or not? '
'
Hmmmmm..' -nodding profusely-
' Cry more. You will feel better after that.'
' Hmmmmm..'- took a deep breathe to control abit-
' Pastor. I'm very proud of you.'' Hmmmm. That's very encouraging from a disciple.'- wiping my tears with the same ball of tears-drenched tissue-Truly..
revival nation is my kind of church.
Heaven on
earth sanctuary.
I'm my
pastor's biggest fan and also the person behind her -
Jesus!!haha..
'Justice is good. But mercy is better.'Justice is getting what you deserved.Mercy is not getting what you deserved.I'm learning how to
shower mercy and to
'slow in speaking and fast in hearing.'Sorry!!today no
woman topics..
